This week my company announced there would be about 850 jobs cut over the course of the next month. It was a surreal day on Tuesday as the news started to unfold, meetings were held, and of course the rumors started flying.
It has been an absolute rollercoaster of emotions. From fear that I would lose job, to an optimistic 'whatever happens will happen for a reason'. I hope that this company, whom I have dedicated 7.5 years of my life to, will recognize and see the value that I feel I add to the organization.
But beyond all of that it was a very good reminder for me that no matter how amazing my employer is, how generous they are, or flexible and accomodating (because it truly is all of those things)....it is still a corporation first. And I work in Corporate America. And layoffs happen. I am not immune.
And so this whole process serves as a reminder to me to enjoy life outside these corporate walls. The time you spend with your family. The memories you make with your family. And a reminder to truly be present when you are doing those things. Because if you spend all of your energy and time on work, and work ceases to exist you aren't left with much.
For now I wait and see what my fate will be. But among all that waiting you can bet there will be lots of baby snuggles, laughs with friends, cooking dinner with my hubby and time to stop and appreciate all that I have right now.